Hello people who've been watching me for one reason or another. It's been quite a while since I've shown any activity here. A lot of things happened for this half year that I was passive, most of it sucked, but I do try to learn from the shittiness of life as much as I can.
Did try to motivate myself to draw but it all failed, especially when I took it as an obligation to other people. It just caused more stress in my stressful as it is life. I thought it'd be nice but I got scorched by myself... again. Tried studying environment art, but when I saw that there are much more awesome people than me who've been doing it for quite a while I decided to rediscover the higher purpose of my job and start doing everything else just for fun, and for myself. The web is full of artists with awesome art anyway.
Thus I decided to switch from things that you can only see, to things that you can also touch. Been experimenting with clay and plush materials without ever completing anything but this time I'll take my time, no stress, work on a single critter for months if I have to and see where it gets me.
I am also in the process of finally accepting parts of me I tried to refuse. Still, they kept coming up, so a lot of stuff going on. Most of it unpleasant, but necessary.
P.S. Sorry to the guys I promised some free sketches/commishes . Seems like art's not really the way for me to do stuff for others. I don't like breaking promises, but it's better than breaking myself for some forced half-assed result on my behalf that might not satisfy either of us.